Ok, finally got around to changing the introduction text. But as you can see, I'm too sianz to write a proper one, so am going to blabber on in hopes that you will get an idea of what sort of person I am by guessing. Yeah, the format of this blog is crap. I haven't got around to fixing it. Later lah.. Much later...
i changed my blogskin so tat u guys can hve a easier time reading my blog. coz alot of ppl say my blog e words hard 2 see. n also coz i'm bored. i'm so booorrreeedddddddd. actually i shld enjoy my boredom 4 nw. coz when e wk starts hve 2 start seriously mugging. haiz. leilani says after e A levels shld go learn something. like go learn hw 2 play an instument or learn another language. i'm thinking y dn't we go learn karate or some sort of martial arts thingy. it'll b a cool thing 2 knw. bt i think in e end we'll end up doing nothing coz it always turns out like tat. say want 2 do tis want 2 do tat then in e end end up stoning at home or something.
ME signed off at 3:33 PM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
11th entry
Its so restrictive writing in a public blog. Actually there was a lot more I wanted 2 say in my previous entry, but it would have not been such a good idea. Half of u wants ppl 2 read it, but half of u doesn't. Like u want ppl 2 knw wat u r really thinking, but pretty much knw tat they wn’t b 2 happy if they do. At times ignorance is more ideal, compared to knowing 2 much. Plus I can’t bitch about certain people because I don't want 2 risk e possibility of them seeing it or some big mouth idiot telling them about it. I dn't really care if I hurt their feelings or if they think I'm a bitch. I dn't even care if they jump down from e 20th floor because of wat I write. Which gives you an idea of what a saint I am. I am more concerned about the negative effects on ME. It sounds a bit selfish, but all human beings r selfish, I'm no exception. It would be uncomfortable facing them, not to mention the fact that they would be none 2 pleasant in their behaviour. Believe me, the people I'm talking about r not your average nice guys. So I have to resort to skirting about e issue in public n bitching about them in private. I'm such a nice person. (By the way, when I say that I dn't care about hurting them etc, I'm referring to people I dn't give a shit about, so you guys r not included.2 e ppl who regularly read tis blog, e 'them' i bitch abt dsn't include u all. so rest in peace)
ME signed off at 4:59 PM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
10th entry
Ok, so u 1 2 knw more abt me. There is effectively nothing interesting abt me. I'm an average human being who likes 2 do e same boring old stuff any other teenager in the seven continents likes 2 do. I hate e same boring old stuff everybody hates. School, exams, mani, traffic etc. I like practically e same things everybody likes. I blog like everybody else does, I watch TV programmes 90% of e population watches (I like 2 do things that r recommended, read books that r in e top ten list, watch movies that have good reviews etc). I have no drama in my life. If I were 2 write an account of my life it would go something like, wake, eat, go to school, go home, eat, stone, eat, sleep, wake, eat, go to school, go home, eat, stone, eat, sleep, wake . . . . . . . . . . times another 365 times another 70+ years, if I live that long. So that's it. Know me a bit better?
ME signed off at 5:13 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
9th entry
I have a suspicion that my previous entries seem to give the impression that I'm an atheist - which I'm not. By the way, I do believe in god. I just don't know which one is god.
How do I make it clearer? I believe there is a god, I just have a deep mistrust of the concepts surrounding god - plus on the confusion of which religion actually represents him. There are so many religions. Too many versions with such similarities, yet are so vastly different. To accept one religion is to reject another. But how do you know whether you are making the right choice?
ME signed off at 7:22 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
8th entry
Many people seem to view religion in terms of the afterlife.
If you don't do this, you won't go to heaven. If you do this, you'll go to hell. If you don't believe in so and so, you'll never be saved and get to enter heaven's gates.
It seems as if they are so concerned about heaven that they forget earth. That the part that comes after life is so much more important than life itself. As if we go through life only for eventual death.
So should I believe in religion and practise virtue only as a golden ticket to heaven - and not because they are the right things to do? Wat is your motivation? Is it really love? Or fear?
I do not think I will go to hell if I don't make a selection from the various gods available to human kind. However, it doesn't make sense that I will go to heaven either. I'm not trying to imply that I'm such a horrible person. Just that, consider. If all good people go to heaven regardless of whether they acknowledge god, it wouldn't be fair to those people who do.
But without the acceptance, unconditional trust and unquestioning belief that's part of religion, won't I be cheating myself as well as god if I were to take a religion? That's why I feel it's so odd tat a life partner of a Muslim has to convert to Islam regardless of his or her believes. You don't believe in god, yet you go through the ritual masquerading as if u do, is that not blasphemous?
After you die, when he asks you why did you pretended to believe in him, what are you going to say? Because somebody told you to?
